I realize that often times when we are not happy it’s because we doubt God’s goodness towards us.

Have you ever witnessed someone with very little being very happy and you with so much cannot find peace, that is so commonplace in the world today.  That has been my story for a number of years before I got my first real experience of God. I had everything my heart desired. A nice townhouse, a more than decent car. I had money in the bank from years of saving and investing wisely. I worked a job that gave me yearly perks such as trips overseas, a good vacation package, a company car which I had declined and opted to drive my own vehicle and so much more. Yet I was not completely happy. I had friends but was still lonely. I had somehow convinced myself that I did not need a permanent man in my life because of what I saw going on around me in other relationships. So I had what others would call a friend with benefits. I had no desire for children because in my own selfish way I did not want to cater to a child that I knew would demand a lot of my time. That was pretty much my life, I lived on my own terms, and I thought that I had everything I needed.

While watching a very popular program on television which will remain nameless, I heard the person talking about our relationship with ourselves and God. How we develop in our minds an ideal of our world when God was calling us to be and have so much more.  As I sat and really listened for reasons unknown to me, at the same time thinking that it was divine intervention. I had to be there that morning listening. The program opened my eyes to my selfishness and created a longing for more than what I thought I needed.

I could go on and on but I will end by saying that sometimes we know deep within us that there is more but for whatever reason we try to close the door thinking that we have it the way it should be. God opened my eyes to the need for him and the need for more. He replaced my doubts with his goodness causing me to trust him and rely on him in that moment. To trust in his goodness.

All of this was a couple years ago and today because I opened myself and trusted in God’s goodness I have the most wonderful family. My daughter who gives me so much joy and is far from being a burden as was my fear back then. I have an husband who understands me and helps me along in my faith as his is very strong. I will definitely end now (smile) by saying to everyone –

Never doubt God’s goodness. He is the only one we can look to and know with certainty will heal all our wounds, wounds we never knew existed.  Will trade our selfishness and replace it with kindness, allowing us to be open to others. Allowing love to exist where there is only hate. Trust in God’s goodness, he will take care of us, he is the only one who does not have an ulterior motive.

Jeremiah 29:11 The Voice (VOICE)

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Eternal, “plans for peace, not evil, to give you a future and hope—never forget that.